Found in familiar territory,
The land between life
And the dream world.
Shaking off your worldly bindings,
The pine trees
And fragrance of fresh rain,
You drift off to sleep.
The clouds above you,
Thin and pure white,
Are your closest companions here.
Flying through the air,
You are free from everything
All physical constraints are gone
And you are finally at peace.
She's there,
The one who infiltrates every dream
The one who watches over and protects.
As you fall further,
Into this pure world
The clouds fall around you
Like flakes in a snow globe.
Holding Her hand and free falling,
Gliding and flying
This is perfection
Peace is attainable if you understand what peace means.
Peace isn't a perfect world.
Peace isn't a world without violence.
Peace isn't a world without greed,
Without pain,
Without death,
Without war.
Peace is being able to know that everyone around you is your brother.
Peace is being able to help people in the way that they want,
Not the way you think you should help.
Peace is being able to walk down the street without prejudice,
Without fear,
Without hatred,
and most of all,
Without having a doubt in your mind that you can change the world if you only try.
I often consider,
Should I be confronted
With Death today,
Would I say
"I am at peace,
I will go willingly"
Or would I be afraid;
Fight the darkness.
For the day I am at peace,
Will most certainly be my last.
The day when the angel will descend,
And I will hear my last rites
Without fear.
Nay! No fear!
At peace,
For eternity.
For I know not
What lies beyond,
But I know
It is never the end.
My dearest Rebecca,
For the first time in my life, I know that there is truly something worth living for. No more will I have to worry about whether or not the next day will be better than the last, because I know that no matter what, you're always there. We have only been together but a few months, and yet I feel more connected to you than I ever have anyone else.
For the first time in my life, I truly know how I feel. I know that I love you, just as I know you love me too. As I write this, I feel like crying simply due to missing you, and I'm completely ok with that. I know that whether we're together or apart, our love grows ever
I know how I feel about her,
And I've felt it once before.
But never has it been so sudden.
That connection when you know
You've found that missing piece
That you've been searching for.
I just hope that one day
She'll feel the same.
That we can hold each other.
That we can be together
And we both know that it's OK.
That I can look into her eyes
And tell her I love her.
The Silent World
When Autumn comes, what comes with, too?
As Life recedes, no more to do.
The Tree of Life, its seed has grown,
The silent world is all our own.
Then comes a cloud, then five, then nine,
Revoking rights of Life Divine,
A darker wish, we cannot hone,
The silent world is all our own.
The sun has failed, all things gone wrong,
Those who live may sing no song,
A sadder thought, we wont condone,
The silent world is all our own.
Come forth, dictators, tell us how,
We differ from the slaughtered cow?
He makes our hearts as cold as stone,
The silent world is all our own.
Intent revealed, he conquers all,
Spirit
Pen to paper
suicide on mind
writing out my sorro
but not enough time
where do you start
in justifying your end?
how do you explain it's your heart
you need to mend?
memories rush forward
tears flooding my eyes
i shouldnt have to choose
to say my final goodbyes.
too late to go back
as my weakness starts to show.
i have to hurry up.
it's time for me to go.
"mother and father
family and friends
this is my life
at its very end.
i know that its too late
to truly say what i feel.
understand that i am deeply sorry
for the years it'll take to heal.
i love each of you
from the bottom of my heart
but theres no choice
i relly
Breaking out, yet leading you in
To follow my trail of guilty sin
I've grasped you in my sinister hands
Let you live my life
With no one left to hold hands
Wicked one, nickname used
To call upon the young and abused
Bruised everywhere from head to toe
But no one really fucking knows
The Angel of Death only means no harm
To be a friend not an alarm
She defends herself all the time
They always get deeper into lies
Unethical ways of her life
No one took the time
To figure out when or why
until she bled to death and died
All they did was kill her more inside...
To be with you in this place,
These flowers blooming to shrine your face.
To share the beauty that grows inside,
And to bring out love, that does hide.
Flowers that grow along and live,
Oil fragrance that their petals give.
The velvet leaves to lie upon,
Love that follows us along.
To live, within a place support,
Our own, forever-living fort.
Be with me and together share,
No cares to live by, or to scare.
Hold my hand, trust the ground,
Shaded stream close to found.
Prance together through the field,
And to each other we do yield.
We hold hands and walk through the forest.
All around us leaves are falling.
Yellow
Amber
Hazelnut
All the colors of fall.
As we walk we hear the crisp crunch,
Of leaves that had fallen not but a week ago,
Under our bare feet.
We smile as the animals congregate around us.
Some deer, a fox, a few squirrels.
They are the creatures of fall.
Not yet do we shelter ourselves from the cold.
The bitter, biting cold of winter is not yet upon us.
But this bliss is short lived.
Soon we feel the cold winter's chill.
We know we don't have much time.
We return to our home to lay down and prepare for winter.
We hug each other close under o
Current Residence: Chambersburg, PA, USA Favourite genre of music: Folk Favourite photographer: Jessica Short Favourite style of art: Macabre Operating System: Windows 2k3 + custom kernel, Mac OS X MP3 player of choice: iPhone, iPod Touch Shell of choice: IPython Wallpaper of choice: Darkness overwhelms me Skin of choice: Sliced, bloody, and mine. Favourite cartoon character: Daria Morgendorffer, Jane Lane, and Trent Lane Personal Quote: You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection
Favourite Visual Artist
Albert Hofmann
Favourite Movies
The Royal Tenenbaums
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Elliott Smith
Favourite Writers
Robert Frost
Favourite Games
Portal, Morrowind, Oblivion
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PC
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Eclipse, Textmate, Python, my twisted mind
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I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
Where we just met.
She's just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see
We've met
Theres something in the way she moves,
Or looks my way, or calls my name,
That seems to leave this troubled world behind.
If I'm feeling down and blue,
Or troubled by some foolish game,
She always seems to make me change my mind.
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
The gentleman's in the lane
Spinning his hat on a cane.
Stepping out, out for a change,
"Good morning all, it's a bea
I'm back to dA. Finally have stuff to write about again... my life's changed quite a lot since I left. I broke up with Nika, and I'm moving back to PA to work full time on my own company's stuff, living off savings.
I've been incredibly depressed lately, so I'm hoping that writing again will help, but we'll see...
The Litebrite's now black and white
'Cause you took apart a picture that wasn't right
Pitch burning on a shining sheet
The only maker that you'd want to meet
A dying man in a living room
Whose shadow paces the floor
He'll take you out any open door
This is not my life
It's just a fond farewell to a friend
It's not what i'm like
It's just a fond farewell to a friend
Who couldn't get things right
Fond farewell to a friend
He said really I just wanna dance
Good and evil match perfect it's a great romance
I can deal with some psychic pain
If it'll slow down my higher brain
Veins full of disappearing ink
Vomiting in the kitchen
hey! its jenny! its been so long! how have you been? i'm trying to start back up this group...lot has been going on...ive been in and out of the hospital and blah blah blah...but comment back and let me know how you are!